if the truth has been forbidden , then we're breaking all the rules ~ (5 زائر)

[الزمـردة]

i don't care if you are black , white ,
stright , bisexual
gay , lesbian
short , tall
fat , skinny
rich or poor
i mean it's 2019 c'mon .. !
if you are nice to me
i will be nice to you
simple as that
ah also , u need to first , deal with me
and see how i treat you , based on how treat me ofc
than u have the right to judge me
i won't care obviously bwt what u'r thoughts about me
but at least give me a try lol
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[الزمـردة]

إعترآف INFP

‏ليت الناس يقدرون محاولاتنا في التحدث *
يرون كيف نقرر ونتراجع في نفس اللحظه و كيف نشعر بالتوتر و الارتباك وكيف ينتهي بنا الحال صامتين
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[الزمـردة]

إعترآفآت INFP

أمور أكرهها في نفسي :
‏- غيرتي المفرطة. ✓
‏- مزاجي المتقلب.✓
‏- عدم حبي للخروج من المنزل.✓
‏- عدم حبي لرؤية الناس.✓
‏- الأنانية في ممتلكاتي الشخصية.✓✓
‏- تأثري بكلام الناس.✓
‏- كوني أكبر محطم لنفسي وأكثر داعم لغيري.✓✓✓
‏- رفضي لإظهار نفسي القاتمة الحقيقية وأظهر كأسعد إنسان . ✓

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[الزمـردة]

naked emotions
cut jagged scars
tarot cards dealt
written in memoirs
forced you and me
into a love that is ours
alone
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[الزمـردة]

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remember the day you told me we can't be together nomore
i didn't believe it i fell sharply crying out on the floor
You hugged me tightly between your arms like u never did before
And said it was over your head too u can't play the friend's role
I wanted us to be something bigger and much deeper
You got to gather your emotions sooner or later
Every night i wake up crying over your name
I can’t help with it i’m a mess i know it’s such a shame
Still everyday and all day i wait for your return
This love gave me nothing but the pain that i daily earn
So please lord give me the stregnth to move over this nightmare
I know you are somewhere up there and that you really care
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by me

 

[الزمـردة]

إعترآف INFP

من المُزعج ان تكون ذو شخصية إزدواجية منقسمة إلى نِصفين
عاطفية لدرجة البكاء و عقلانية لدرجة انها تسخر من ذلك البكاء
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[الزمـردة]

إعترآف INFP

أنآ صديق سيء ، وغريب مُؤذي ، ومريض نفسياً
فلآ تَقتربوا منّي أيهآ الملآئكة .
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[الزمـردة]

he was my favourite type of chaos "
confusingly dragging me into his hazardous world
.... revealing the hysteria of my soul
" still to this day, he is my favorite type of madness
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[الزمـردة]

he was the one that healed her
that made her scars look beautiful
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[الزمـردة]

I never knew, I never knew
That everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears
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